Why?

Why? Seriously. Why is this affecting me so much?

Most people feel flattered if somebody likes them. But not me, no, I have to feel bad about it. Is it because I feel like I used him? Or because I think he's just a little bit... peculiar...? Or... I dunno... He's attractive enough, but shorter than me... Gah.

Oh, and I still like my friend/my friend's ex.

Congratulations me.

Dammit.

Bleh.

Never.

Never like someone who is totally out of your league.

And your friend's ex.

It just makes it all much more confusing, and difficult. Especially since it's so NOT going to happen because, as previously stated, he is completely out of my league. Oh, and he probably doesn't like me like THAT anyway since his last girlfriend was like... I dunno, a size 6? 8? I dunno, something much, much tinier than myself. And you know, I'm insanely neurotic and she so wasn't or isn't... Or whatever.

Eurgh.

I hate my appearance, my self esteem, my complete failure with intimacy/flirting/relationships.

I suck.